In his new brilliant Recovery album Eminem rapped about these same issues in the song "I'm Going Through Changes"
In softball we all have a reflection and we also have to decide if we like what we see. Lately I've hating my softball reflection for the following reasons :
- An old wise Spanish saying says "todo los dias no son dias de fiesta" - it means not everyday is a day for a party. In softball that is so very true, you have to take the good with the bad and try and remember that if your biggest problem is your batting average you have a good life. Yeah whatever. OK in the grand scheme of life that is all good, but fuck that politically correct sesame street good guys finish last double talk. THIS IS SOFTBALL and the majority of hardcore players I know want to hit, make plays, pitch gems, recruit stud players, and most of all win. Lately there has been many team and personal failures where failure shouldn't have happened. It's a very empty feeling when there are more valleys than peaks.
- Popping the maximum number of 200 mg of Ibuprofen every time I play to get through the pain. It's a pain killer addiction. Not good when you can't stop with these pills. It's gotta stop. They ain't M&M's
- Softball recruitment - it's a ruthless selfish cut throat dirty game. Balancing keeping good people and loyalty is almost impossible and it doesn't make me feel good. It's a cut throat scheming evil world where compromise is almost impossible and if your around long enough you eventually become the bad guy and lose a bit of your soul.
- Softball Collections - collecting money from softball deadbeats is a waste of my life force
- The Blog. Lately I have received heavy criticism on not being an honest editor/writer b/c I don't criticize my teammates, friends, or teams enough. I will address these issues in a near future blog. More importantly. I've been getting a lot of self centered guest writer or appearance requests with personal agendas for the blog. I deeply appreciate all my readership, but what I want my readers to understand is that I've always taken a Dave Chappele approach to the blog. Chappele was brilliant on the "Dave Chappele Show" but suddenly quit in the 3rd season at the height of his popularity after breaking up with his longtime writing partner, Neal Brennan. You see Dave and Neal always wrote/did the show like no one else was watching they just fed off of each other's creativity and sheer comedy genius resulted. When the networks started demanding that Dave be funny he quit. I always write all my blogs with one softball target in mind, my longtime partner and friend Juan "Blonde " Moreiras (seen below in his Fidel outfit )
he's taught me most of what I know about softball and life and if I can capture his softball attention in a blog then I know everything else will flow. Readers/fans need to understand that all good blogs inspire/provoke thought, laughter, and imagination. Once a blog becomes vindictive, selfish, and demanding then it will suck. Points 1-4 above plus readership demands has given my writer's block lately.
When looking in your softball mirror it's important to remember that none of us are SB bulletproof, and should stand up and man/woman enough to change. I guess I'm too stupid to quit so I will keep on trying